Starting with this topic is a bit of a dilemma.
I got married in April, this year. Happy start.
My wife is the most beautiful girl within 100 kilometers radius.
She get PCOS when she was younger because of endless of work and PUA from her boss. In other words, not easy to get pregnant. However, she’s kind of confident to have a baby before 30 years old.
In June, this year, she told me she’s going to prepare to get pregnant and ask me to quit smoking. A very reasonable request.
However, again, I took her words as a sideline. Still, I smoked 5 ~ 8 cigarettes every day.
It was shocking that she told me she might be pregnant because of the delayed menstruation, and she had a positive hCG test result!
Oh my God!
I did not know what to do. But I still took her to OBGYN. Oh yes, she’s gonna have a baby, probably mine!
Next, she began experiencing a range of troublesome symptoms: morning sickness, insomnia, and loss of appetite.
Worsely, On her way back from the hospital, she fell while hurrying and scraped her knee. I didn’t accompany her to the hospital because my boss needed me for a meeting, which left me feeling terribly frustrated. It also made her life even more inconvenient.
And, this was not the thing worries me most.
As mentioned, I’m a smoker, for about 10 years. I did not quit smoking to help my wife to prepare for pregnancy. After suffering so much, what if she get an unhealthy baby at last? This matter has became my inner demon.
Now, I just want her be healthy, and the baby could be healthy. Let her have a normal life, with kids, family.
God bless!